With moving just around the corner, I thought it was time to reevaluate myself and take this as a chance to set in place new routines. New house, new me sort of deal. As someone who gets into a rut, bad habits become all too easy, and frustration and sadness grow friendlier acquaintances than they should: invading my home without so much as to a hint of an invitation.
All to often my head and heart find themselves entangled in so much baggage that they just cant seem to meet one another, creating a discord that knocks me completely off balance.
With my health having dipped back in summer of 2014, things have been a fluctuation of highs and lows since,emotionally and physically, and I’m getting a little dizzy from it all.
Moving has always been somewhat therapeutic for me. It allows me to pack up only the good, packing it carefully in boxes, while I leave the dank dark creatures of stress to linger on in a house no longer wanted. Where I can lock the door on them forever and say goodbye in a healthy manner.
And so, as I rush to work after yet another night of utter discomfort and a morning clouded with stress, I decided it was time to change, and when better than in tandem with a move. In light of this somewhat healing revelation, I compiled a list, for both you my lovely readers and for me, of what my ‘house moving resolutions’ will be.
1.Get to bed earlier. A simple one, I know, but it’s something I’ve always struggled with. As someone who worries about never having enough time, I try to cram as much as I can into the hours I’m awake. That’s all well and good, however, until your body become slow and sluggish due to a messed up body clock. And so, I would love to be able to get into bed and fall asleep between the hours of 10-11 pm.
2. No internet after 10pm on a weekdays. I know this will be somewhat unrealistic due to work and my blog, but if I can help it, I would love to be able to put aside all my electronics and social media at a decent time during the weekdays. I would love to relax my brain and just disconnect from the ever busy tweets and likes.
3. Read before bed. Something I have been saying for what seems like a million years, is my desire to read more. As an inspiring writer, I’m somewhat ashamed at the lack of books I consume. I have so many I’m dying to read, but the lack of space in my brain is making the idea of sitting down with a good book adjacent to running a marathon (which, if you know me, is pretty impossible, I could sooner walk on water).
4. Write everyday. Write write write. It’s all I want to do, and while I do try to bang out a paragraph or two of mashed words and disjointed metaphors, I never manage to take it further. I seem to hit a road block before it can turn into a two page tale that I’m slowly growing in love with. I would love to be able to step back at the end of the week or month and see something cohesive and well knitted together filled with the breathings of my imagination.
5. Eat better and be healthy. Living as a vegetarian in Japan is really really hard, especially in Nagasaki, a smaller scale city. A fishing port. Japan has this bizarre habit of putting meat in everything, and I mean everything. If it looks vegetarian, says ‘no meat’ this isn’t necessarily the case. Because, as far as Japan is concerned, sometimes bacon isn’t meat and neither is any other animal product. Don’t be discouraged, however, my fellow veggies and vegans reading who wish to come to Japan. It is possible, especially if you are on holiday: it just takes a little patience and dedication. So, in light of this, my goal is to cook more and to learn about how different ingredients fuse to make something truly delicious, something I can enjoy as a break in my tofu based monotony.
6. Be more punctual. I’m literally so bad at this. That’s all I can say on the matter. A lot of this has to do with my OCD. Some days are good and I can leave the house like everyone else…but then other days are not so good. It’s stressful and drains my energy. The urge to just go back through that door I’ve locked maybe twenty times and curl up on my bed can get to tempting sometimes.
7. Stop procrastinating. Procrastination is one of my biggest vices. As someone who is somewhat free spirited, I flit from one thing to the next. I get distract by my next big project, which sadly leaves many unfinished. I want to be able to split my time better and to clear my mind long enough to sit down and dedicate myself to something wholeheartedly until it’s finished.
8. Save money. This is a big one. With moving back to study a masters degree in the not so distant future, I really need to up my game and make sure I leave Japan with more money than I came with. Sadly, writing can sometimes be a fickle mistress when it comes to steady pay, so it’s probably best that I have some tucked away for a dry day.
These are just a few of the things I’m hoping to accomplish with moving. As I transition from one apartment to another, I want to transition too, to move away from the negative and towards the positive. Perhaps some of you will think these are a little drastic, or that surely, moving apartments cannot be the catalyst for such changes, and so many. Well, you may be right there, butI’ve always been a reflection of my surroundings. By which I mean I’m very sensitive to where I am. If I’m in a bright room, in a place I love, then I will feel happy and energised. If I am in a city too crowded then I sometimes become stressed and timid. I know many people are the same.
I may not be able to accomplish all of these if any, but I hope that I can get a head start, and build good habits in the place of bad.
Have any of you ever felt this way? If so, let me know what you changed when you moved? Or would you would change if you could.
I really hope you enjoyed this read, because I really really enjoyed writing it for you!